✧ 05 ✧

[bonnypiperlad]

[Before taking up Nathan on his offer to send him home, Jamie heads back to his townhouse. There's a few things that were left behind that he needs to fetch, like his claymore. And maybe a few other small things that he's kept as mementos of his trip here. He doesn't know if they'll come with him or not, but he wants to try. However, once he steps through the door, he finds himself wandering through the different rooms, rather than immediately collecting his things. It's funny, he thinks. When he had come here, everything was unknown to him. The technology, the people - the man calling himself the Doctor, who didn't look a thing like the funny little man he had just said goodbye to on the moors of Scotland. None of it made any sense. And when the dreams had started, it had made everything even more strange. All those bits of a life he no longer remembered living...for a bit, he thought he was going mad.

He remembers it now, though. Or, well, most of it. Enough that he can recall his adventures with the Doctor easily. All the beasties they fought, all the times they had to live on their wits, and all the people he had come to meet as well. Ben and Polly, who thought of him a bit like a little brother that was always getting into trouble. Beautiful Victoria, who had broken his heart when she left. And clever Zoe, with her head for figures and an impulsive streak to rival his own. Zoe, who was now back home, like he was supposed to be, and without her memories too. What would happen to his memories, when he left? Would Sophie's socks survive the journey and help them stay put? Or would they slip away from him again, leaving him like he was before?

Standing in front of the viewscreen in his living room, he looks at it, or more accurately, through it. He's not really seeing it. Instead, he's thinking about Nathan's offer. The man needs help, and what does he have to go back to? A life on the run, captured or killed by the English? A life without the Doctor? Without realizing it, the CAT's flickered to life during his trip through the townhouse, and if anyone's actually watching, they might see the indecision on his face as he tries to figure out what to do - and when he finally does speak.]

Maybe it'd not be so bad, if I stayed here instead.

((OOC note: For reference, the thread with the Doctor is occurring last, chronologically.))

Comments

[wind-of-reason.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry. I think so, if the same thing happens as last time.

Does this make your decision more difficult?

[bonnypiperlad]

[He looks back up again, and nods.] A bit, aye. Do I stay where I can remember all my travels and all the wonders I've seen..or do I go back to the home I grew up in, even though I'll not have those memories?

How am I supposed to choose between that?

[wind-of-reason.livejournal.com]

[Fuu hesitates and thinks about that seriously for a moment. What if she hadn't been able to remember everything that had happened in Cephiro...]

...Mister Jamie, I believe you have to go where your heart is. Is it at home with the people you know there, or is it with the new people you have met?

I- I'm sorry if it is a question that makes it even harder but... I understand the choice you need to make, somewhat.

[bonnypiperlad]

[Oh, it'll be easy enough. He just has to figure out where his heart lies. Simple, right? Well, not so much. While he's turning it over in his head, however, he can't help but wonder what Fuu's choice is.]

What about ye, Fuu? Are ye trying to decide that as well?

[wind-of-reason.livejournal.com]

Oh- I have made my decision for here. I'll be returning home.

But... I had to make a decision in the past like this.

[bonnypiperlad]

Oh. [A lot of people here will, he realizes. He also realizes that he's going to miss her - that is, if he stays. Obviously, if he goes, it'd be a different story. Either way, she's a friend, and he's reluctant to see her go. It occurs to him, though, that she doesn't have to, not just yet. Especially not if they talk for awhile longer.]

Would ye mind telling me how that happened? It...it might help me. To make up my own mind, that is.

[wind-of-reason.livejournal.com]

Mmm... [She thinks for a moment, trying to sort out the relevant parts. It's a long story.]

Well, I was once brought to another world against my will. There were... many hardships and many triumphs. In the end we were able to save this other world. There is an open door to travel between my world and theirs freely, but I had to choose if I wanted to live out a life with my new friends and help rebuild the world, or if I wanted to return home to Japan and continue living my life there.

I chose my life in Japan. A piece of my heart is always in that other world, but the larger part is with my family and my friends at home. And that other world will get by and rebuild, with or without further help from my hands.

[bonnypiperlad]

I see. Aye, that makes sense. [It's a little different for him. His family in Scotland is mostly gone. The Doctor's the closest thing he has to that now, and that does make a difference.]

But...ye said there was this door between the worlds. Could ye not go back, if that's what ye really wanted?

[wind-of-reason.livejournal.com]

Yes. I can go back, and I have. However I still had to make the choice of where I would live. It would be... unfair to both worlds if I tried to live both lives.

[bonnypiperlad]

[Try as he might, he's not quite understanding how something like that would be a problem.] How do ye mean it'd be unfair?

[wind-of-reason.livejournal.com]

Mmm... [How can she explain this feeling...?]

I feel that... I should live my life with all my energy. If I tried to live in both worlds, I feel like I would be giving them... a half-life. I'm sorry, it's a bit hard to explain.

[bonnypiperlad]

No, I think I see what ye mean. You'd rather give all of yourself to one place than try and split it between two. Is that right?

[wind-of-reason.livejournal.com]

Yes, exactly. It's not that I love the other world any less, and indeed I still travel there, but I did not make it my home.

[bonnypiperlad]

Aye. That makes sense.[He's quiet for a moment, considering his options, then nods to himself before looking up and giving her a smile.]

I think I know what I'm going to do now. Thank ye for helping.

[wind-of-reason.livejournal.com]

[She blushes a little at the compliment, but nods.]
You're very welcome. I'm glad that you can make a confident decision.

May I ask what you'll do?

[bonnypiperlad]

If the Doctor is going to stay, I'll stay. And if not, I'll see if there's any way I can travel with him again, at least for a time.

Scotland will always be a part of me, but...I'm not ready to leave the Doctor again. Not if I can help it.

[wind-of-reason.livejournal.com]

I see. I didn't realize that the Doctor means so much to you.
I'm sure you won't regret it, Mister Jamie.

[bonnypiperlad]

I'd not remembered it for awhile myself. But, aye. He does. Ye mentioned your family, back in Japan. He's...I guess ye could say he's like my family now.

So, I think you're right, Fuu. Whatever happens, I'll not regret the chance to travel with him again. I'll miss ye being around, though.

[wind-of-reason.livejournal.com]

I'll miss you too.
[She says it automatically in reply, then saddens slightly when she realizes that she might not remember him to miss him.
Forcing a smile back on her face, she bows a bit.]

Thank you again for everything. Please take care travelling with the Doctor. [A conspiratorial whisper-] He seems like the type to get into trouble a lot.

[bonnypiperlad]

Oh, aye, he does. Right up to his neck. [He grins then, a rather crooked-looking one.]

Thank ye as well, Fuu. It'll not be the same without ye here. [He means it. She's become a friend to him, and he hugs her, just like he would any of his female friends. However, she can still easily break free if she wants.]

;; why is saying good-bye even just in game so hard...

[wind-of-reason.livejournal.com]

[At the hug she stiffens nervously and blushes, but after a moment relaxes. (Perhaps she'll get more used to these physical displays of affection eventually...)

Raising her arms, she gives him a quick, light hug in return. After a moment she steps back with the best smile she can muster on her face.]

Farewell, Mister Jamie.

I didn't realize it'd be this hard. ;_;

[bonnypiperlad]

Goodbye, Fuu. Take care of yourself, aye?

[He starts to leave, but then turns back to wave at her one last time before walking off.]

*holds!* There is always next season! o/

[wind-of-reason.livejournal.com]

[She nods and watches him go. When he turns back she laughs a little to herself and waves back.
And after a long moment she takes a deep breath and continues on her own way.]