To me it is, but the same can't be said of nearly everyone else. And it's not like I could answer your question. Maybe I'd want to go back, maybe I wouldn't. I'd probably be much, much different in nearly every way if I'd been allowed to develop in a more pleasant environment. The question has too many layers for me to be able to answer easily, but I also realize that it was mostly rhetorical.

[His eyes dart off to the side somewhere, focusing on nothing in particular.]

You're not my bartender or my therapist. You're just a kid, and even though you seem rather mature, you shouldn't have to deal with me rambling on about my insecurities. You undoubtedly have better things to do, and I really must stop being so open.