It should be easy to do that. Maybe it's different for someone who's intimately familiar with a world that isn't worth saving, where children are an inconvenience except to the two or three people who love them, if they're so lucky, and where taking on a "bad group" will only get someone humiliated, killed, and then humiliated again. A place worth returning is simply unthinkable to me.

For that matter, the type of people who would choose others' happiness over their own lives are similarly alien to me: my brain just struggles to process it, and frankly the idea frightens me. I've been terrified of saying or doing the wrong thing ever since I arrived here and noticed that--

Why am I even telling you this?